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Day 138

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 15, 2010

It’s day 138! Wow. Hard to believe that I’ve been working at this for that long, really. Most previous weight-loss efforts have stopped much sooner than 4+months. You’ve probably had that same experience of getting all fired up and doing great on your “diet” then BAM! You hit a wall and abandon your efforts putting on more weight back on than you lost in the first place. I think we’ve all done that.

This time, I’m really doing it! Making steady progress and realizing that just because I ate a cupcake at a party doesn’t mean my diet is over. The key is getting back on that horse and continuing your plan. That all being said, let’s get to the good stuff:

My plan for today:


9:00 Wake up, take meds, stretch, get dressed.

10:00 Breakfast. 1/4c (uncooked) steel-cut oats, 3 egg whites.


12:30 Lunch. Chicken breast sandwich on whole wheat bread with mustard. Spinach salad.

3:30 Snack. 1/2c fat-free cottage cheese, 1/2c frozen blueberries.

6:00 Dinner. Not sure about this, but will try to behave myself.


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Day 137

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 14, 2010

Today starts with personal training and ends with fencing. Other than that, I’ve got a whole lot to get done around the house today. Lots of lists.

Here’s my food plan for the day:


7:15 Wake up, take meds, stretch, get ready for training.

8:00 Personal training with Maggie.

9:00 Breakfast. Protein shake from Maggie, 1 banana.

11:00 Snack. 1 apple, 10 almonds.


1:00 Lunch. 1/2c brown rice, 6oz tilapia, 2c broccoli, salad.

3:00 Snack. 1/2c fat-free cottage cheese, 1/2c frozen blueberries.

5:30 Dinner. 4oz chicken breast, 3c salad, grape tomatoes, onions, peppers.

9:00 Snack. Post-workout protein shake.


This morning at personal training, I broke the news to Maggie that my budget needs to take a month off from personal training. I’m sad, she’s sad. Here’s the thing, I need to see if I can manage to make progress without having her 2-3x/week. I’ll be honest here, I’m going to need some help from my support system that I’ve been cultivating for the last few months. The reality is that I feel like I’ve been at the Biggest Loser Ranch for 3 months and now I have to go home and get the job done on my own. I know I can do it, but I’ve also promised myself if I’m failing to make progress, I will call Maggie and get back on track. So, what I need from my dear readers, fans, friends, and family, is to be supportive and come out and join me for a 5k some time! You can do it!

I have a book recommendation for today to inspire you to be your best no matter where you are on this journey. It’s called Slow Fat Triathlete: Live Your Athletic Dreams in the Body You Have Now by Jayne Williams. Check it out!

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Day 136

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 13, 2010


9:30 Woke up, took meds, drank water, stretched.

10:45 Breakfast. 1 banana, 1c roasted red pepper and tomato soup (Pacific foods soups are incredibly delicious and worth the price!)


1:00 Lunch. Chick-fil-A Southwest Chargrilled Salad, no dressing. Coke Zero. (TIP: Do not use any regular dressing. Read the labels! At Chick-fil-A, the clear winners in the condiment category are the Buffalo Sauce and Light Italian dressing. You can practically dump these on your food with no ill caloric effects. The Buffalo Sauce tastes good on salad!)

3:00 Snack. 1/2c fat-free cottage cheese, 1/2c frozen blueberries.

5:30 Dinner. Rotisserie chicken breast (no skin), 2c steamed broccoli. For my family, I’m adding roast red potatoes to this meal.

9:00 Snack. Some sort of recovery protein beverage for post-workout.

I am also packing an apple in my purse, just in case I have to eat something while I’m out. An apple isn’t going to do any damage.

I’m planning to get in my cardio tonight on my way home from rehearsal. It’s not ideal, but it won’t be taking away from family time. I also need to start figuring out how to run on the treadmill. This is something I’m not particularly excited about.

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Day 135 – Weigh-In

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 12, 2010

Today was a weigh-in, as will be every Tuesday now. I weighed in at 294.2lbs! Yes! I’m on track for my monthly 10lb goal. So, I’m at a total of 55.8lbs lost! I had a great workout today. We’re working on my coordination, flexibility, and agility. I need all of that for fencing, especially.

Looking ahead to my race schedule, I’ve got three 5ks coming up in February and March where I want to see some real progress in my time. Along with training for those, I start training for two mini-triathlons coming up in April and May.

For this start of the year, my primary fitness goal is get more of this darn weight off. Yes, I will be progressing in muscle-building, endurance, etc., but I’m focusing on my diet to get the pounds off quickly. I am really tired of having a gut, so it’s got to go!

Some other news and points of interest:

  • My wedding ring is in my jewelry box for the time being. It’s too big. Every time I go to wash my hands, I’m in danger of it going down the drain. I almost lost it three times in one day, so that was it. It was also just flying off at random times.
  • People I haven’t seen in a long time are shocked when they see me. People I have recently met are shocked when they see YouTube videos of me from a few years ago. When I get down to 200, nobody will recognize me! It will be even worse when I get to 175 (goal weight!)

The Biggest Loser is on tonight! Tune in at 8/7central on NBC to see who’s going home tonight!

Okay, so here’s the food plan for today.


7:30 Woke up, took meds, drank water.

8:00 Training with Maggie and weigh-in.

9:00 Breakfast. Protein shake from Maggie.

11:00 Snack. 6oz fat-free Yoplait yogurt, 1 apple.

1:00 Lunch. McDonald’s Grilled Chicken Caesar salad with Newman’s Own Balsamic Vinaigrette. Our family has sworn off McDonald’s for 2010, but today our LEGO robotics team is meeting there for lunch and awards before heading to play mini-golf. This is clearly an exception.

4:00 Snack. 1/2c fat-free cottage cheese, 1/2c frozen blueberries.

6:30 Dinner. 5oz salmon, 2c broccoli.

9:00 Snack. 1 scoop EAS protein powder.

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Day 134

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 11, 2010

Okay, so readers like the food journal and the pictures. I will be back on track with that tomorrow, I swear!

Today, I got a seriously late start. I started cleaning out my closet, and so far, I have 2 bags of clothes that are going to Goodwill. I’m not even close to being done, either. After the clothes, I’m going through the yarn. There is a lot of it! Maybe I will finally knit myself a sweater next winter because it will be a much smaller project!!! LOL!

I didn’t calibrate my Nike+ today, but I did map out a 3-mile course on Google Maps that will be a nice change from my current route.

Today’s food so far:

2 fat-free Yoplait yogurts
1 clementine
1 Special K bar
2 slices whole wheat bread with mustard and 4oz chicken breast

The rest of the day’s plans:

Snack: 2 scoops EAS protein powder

Dinner: 2 scoops EAS protein powder (I know. Don’t feel like eating after fencing tonight. Better than nothing.)


Tonight, I have fencing, and I’m having a hard time getting pumped about going. I am still a beginner, and it’s just soooo difficult at my weight (at ANY weight, really, but especially at nearly 300 lbs). I missed last week due to a rehearsal one night, and being at Disney on the other night. So, I’m starting off the new year by missing a week of fencing. This is a recurring psychological theme in my life that I have to get over. Just because I miss 1-2 times, it is not the end of the world! In the music world (I’m a trained professional musician), you are trained to NOT miss anything. I’ve been in so many musical situations where if you are late, you’re fired, if you miss, you’re fired. Any infraction, and you’re fired or kicked out. I need to remember that fencing is for fun! A hobby! I go when I go, and enjoy it. It’s not a gig!

With all that in mind, I think I can do it!

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Day 133

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 10, 2010

It’s really flippin’ cold in Tampa today. I went to the YMCA for a Salsa dance class (please stop laughing now.) There was a substitute teacher, so I don’t think it was exactly what it usually is. There was a mix of salsa, zumba, belly dancing, and stretching. I definitely got in my cardio for the day. Just to make sure, I hopped on the elliptical after class for 10 minutes to work my legs.

I’m on track with my calories today, but not the greatest eating plan.  I’m drinking tons of water, too. Tuesday is a weigh-in, and in order to make my 10 pound/month goal, I need to see some progress.

Tomorrow, I’m planning to finally calibrate my Nike+ system after I outline some distances on Google Maps tonight. I need a change up in my route, because, frankly, I’m sick of doing the same old lap. I also need to make some serious plans regarding swimming and biking, now that I’m signed up for 2 mini-triathlons this Spring. What was I thinking? How am I going to work this in to my current training plan?

I also need to figure out a better way to blog my food diary. First, does anyone care about all of that? I know that when I do detailed recording of my food, I lose weight, so there’s my answer, I guess.

So far today, and I’m being brutally honest here, I’ve eaten:

1 KIND sesame & peanut bar
1 KIND almond & apricot yogurt bar
1 banana
1 slice sourdough 5-grain bread
3 pieces of cheese ravioli
1 Mix1 key lime protein shake

I’m planning to eat:

1 baked potato
1c homemade chili (no beans)
6oz fatfree Yoplait yogurt

Not great, not terrible.

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Day 132

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 9, 2010

It’s freezing cold in Tampa. Some areas got sleet and a few flakes of actual snow! Miraculous, really. Basically, I’m going to have to get my butt to the YMCA today because my now-Florida blood is way too wimpy for this cold. I’m also missing 50 pounds worth of insulation, so I’m just plain feeling colder than everyone else in my house. It’s taking a little while to get used to a new and improved body. I imagine it will take me years to fully accept myself when I reach my goal weight. The last time I wasn’t clinically obese was toddlerhood. Still trying to wrap my head around the fact that I will make it to 180 in 2010.

I’ve been having weigh-ins every 2 weeks, but starting on Tuesday, they will be weekly. I’m a little nervous about this, but I want to really buckle down and get this done. It’s only ONE YEAR. That’s it! I can do anything for a year. I’ve worked at crappy jobs, lived in crappy apartments, endured crappy situations, and the biggest difference between this endurance contest  and the others is that getting my weight and fitness in order will be beneficial to me in every area of my life instead of self-destructive or martyrdom. I’m doing this for myself! My husband and family are definitely benefitting, but ultimately it’s for myself. My confidence level has gone way up and I’m not interested in anyone getting in my way there. I can do it!


10:00 Woke up, took meds, drank a Coke Zero (I know!).

11:00 Breakfast. 1/4c steel cut oats, 3 egg whites, 1 small banana.

12:00 Exercise. YMCA.

2:00 Lunch.

4:30 Snack.

7:00 Dinner.

9:00 Snack.

10:00 Bed.

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Day 131

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 8, 2010

Today, I ran/walked in the Disney Pixar Up & Away 5k! It was a whole lot of fun! If you get a chance to do a Disney race of any kind, DO IT!

I’m not posting my food journal today because I’m really exhausted and am going to bed. I had a sleepless night in the hotel room with my family and bickering kids last night, along with a 4:30am wake up call. After the race, I returned to the hotel, took a shower, got ready for a day at the Magic Kingdom, and packed/loaded the car. We abandoned the Magic Kingdom in the afternoon because it was just too cold and drizzling. I felt like a cold, soggy mess, so we just came on home.

After a lovely family dinner of different soups and grilled cheese sandwiches, I’m wrapping up the day and going to bed.

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Day 130

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 7, 2010


9:00 Woke up, took meds, stretched, drank water. Time for laundry and packing for Disney. I’m participating in the Disney Marathon Weekend 5k Family Run tomorrow morning at 7am. I’m nervous and excited about it. One thing that concerns me is the temperature. We’ve been having record-breaking low temperatures here in Florida this week, and it doesn’t look like it will get any warmer for tomorrow’s race. Our family is scrambling for enough warm clothes to wear at Disney for 2 days. We just don’t have a lot of cold weather gear! I have mostly decided on my race clothes: compression shorts, long QuikWik pants, long-sleeve dri-fit shirt, thin fleece half-zip jacket, gloves, and possibly a hat I can discard. I might wear a light green running shirt for some color since everything else is black! You know… slimming effects and all that! LOL!

11:00 Breakfast. 1 banana, 1 KIND apricot/almond/yogurt bar.


1:00 Snack.

3:00 Lunch.

6:00 Dinner.

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Day 129

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 6, 2010


8:30 Woke up, took meds, drank water, stretched.

9:30 Breakfast. 1/4c (uncooked) grits, 3/4c egg whites, 1T butter.

11:00 Snack. 1 clementine.

2:30 Lunch. Grilled chicken with fruit salad from Chick-Fil-A.

9:00 Dinner. Perkins. 2 eggs, 2 strips bacon, 1.5 pancakes with sugar-free syrup.

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