Archive for February, 2010
Posted by iwanttodothat on February 27, 2010
Posted by iwanttodothat on February 25, 2010
As you might guess from the title of this entry, I’ve been extremely busy!
I’ll tell you a little bit about my life outside of blogging about my fitness journey to give you a better idea of how difficult it is to stay on track sometimes. First, I’m a homeschooling mom. I’ve got 2 adorable kids who I educate on a daily basis. I work part-time as a church organist. I teach a group of kids at our homeschool co-op once a week about things like knitting, literature, and music. When the planets are aligned, I am an adjunct professor in music theory at a state university here. I also have various music, teaching, and accompanying (piano) gigs which are typically short-term or singletons (weddings, funerals, music contest/festival, lessons, etc.)
Sometimes, all of these things are fighting for my attention. I haven’t even included things I do for fun like fencing, races, working out, and all of the duties I have as a regular mom/chauffeur/chef/homemaker. Balance is elusive at times, but I’m always trying to find it.
Yes, I have a wonderful husband who is incredibly supportive and I have got to find time for him, too! 🙂 He has been incredible through this process and none of it would have been possible without him.
I can hardly even remember the days when I had nearly no responsibilities to manage. One of my oldest fantasies is to live on a sailboat. As an adult now, I know that this would actually be a LOT of work and a LOT of planning and preparation. Life on a sailboat isn’t all that easy. I digress.
I guess what I’m trying to get at here is that since I’ve lost some weight and gotten more physically fit, all of this is easier to manage. I’m having a hard time sustaining my physical training and diet regimen, but am not in the proverbial ditch. The daily activity is easier. Just moving around is so much easier.
Another thing going on right now is that our house has sinkhole activity under it, and we will have to endure a few months of stabilization and restoration work. This is going to be a huge disruption in our family life. We have to clean out the house as if we were moving, because the restoration work will be fairly intense (floors, ceilings, painting, etc.) The end result will be worth the hassle, but it’s going to be a huge hassle and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
Yes, a lot is going on. I am struggling with finding a balance. I don’t want to drop the ball on any responsibilities, so I’m going to devote the next few posts about balance and planning. I will be working through my own issues, and hope it serves as an example or inspiration for you, dear reader, to look at your own life and see where a little recalibration is necessary and how you go about doing that.
What have I learned so far? 1 – I cannot neglect everything around me and only focus on MY diet and MY exercise regimen, along with all the blogging, etc. 2- I cannot neglect myself while I pour everything into everyone else. So, the big question is how to take care of myself so I can take care of everyone/thing else? That’s what I’m going to attempt to uncover over the next couple of weeks, so stay tuned!
Balance? Yeah, I want to do that!
Posted by iwanttodothat on February 19, 2010
Last night at fencing class, I observed another fencer in a bout and she seemed as light and quick as a feather! She was really impressive to watch. I started wondering if I will ever get to that point. Will I someday be light and quick? It seems so far removed from my entire lifelong reality, that it seems nearly impossible.
As a major effort to get lighter, I’m going hardcore for awhile. This means no sugar, no gluten, sticking with eating plan, and burning a LOT of calories every day. I’d like to shed 20 pounds pretty quickly to help get me back into the groove. That means it’s Business Time. I’m not messing around here.
This morning, I had oatmeal and egg whites for breakfast, so I’m on the right track!
For some extra motivation, and a “feel good” moment, I thought I’d post a progress photo. What will I look like after another 50 pounds gone?
Leave a comment telling me something you feel good about! Let everyone know!
March 16 release date. Pre-order today!
Posted by iwanttodothat on February 17, 2010
With 100+ pounds to go, you’d think I would be all over this! Yes, there’s a part of me that would love – LOVE – to be on The Biggest Loser. I think I would be an awesome contestant! Really! My husband and I have considered this and we’ve decided that we’d pass on it.
Why not be on TBL? The main reason is that we are just not willing to have our family completely exposed on national television. Being on TBL is not exactly a positive thing, folks! Yes, getting fit and losing tons of weight is exciting, Bob and Jillian are awesome and inspirational, and there are all kinds of surprises and challenges. A bonus is that you’re basically responsibility-free for however long you can stay on that ranch. Who doesn’t dream about that?
What I’m talking about is that the contestants cannot control how they are portrayed on the show. The producers can make it look like whatever they want it to look like. On my blog here, I have complete control over the content. I can tell you what I want to, when I want to. The pictures of myself that appear here are chosen by me! Do I want my children to see me have a mental breakdown on national television? Do I want everyone in America to read about why I’m fat? When did I start putting weight on? How has that made me feel my whole life? Etc. You get the idea.
I do believe that I have gone through all of that processing with my personal trainer, my husband, my friends, my family, and lots of other people already. I am not interested in rehashing it all on tv.
My incredibly supportive husband suggested that maybe a personal trainer is what would do the trick for me, so after this season’s auditions, I started shopping for a trainer and found Maggie. Yes, it’s hard, but I’m at home trying to re-train my family as well as myself. We’re working together as a team.
Yes, I’d still love to be on the show, but when you’re in a family, it’s not all about you! It’s a family decision, and I completely respect that. When you decide to audition for one of these shows, really think about what you’re doing.
Maybe I’ll have my few minutes of fame without getting up on the Biggest Loser scale in front of America!
March 16 release date. Pre-order today!
Posted by iwanttodothat on February 14, 2010
I thought it might be fun to start including some product reviews from time to time, and the first lucky product is mix1.
I first tried this delicious beverage after a 5k, and was hooked! Yes, it has more carbs than a “carb control” type drink, but this is an excellent balance of 2:1 ratio of carbs to protein. I would recommend this drink more as a breakfast or snack option, or pre-exercise sustained energy drink. Because of the amount of sugar in it, I would not recommend as a post-exercise or evening beverage. You can’t forget that this is definitely a better snack option than the unknown in case you have to diverge from your eating plan. Keep one in your desk at work or tucked away in your refrigerator at home for that moment of unpreparedness.
My favorite is the blueberry-vanilla, but the key lime and tangerine flavors are very good, too! Actually, all of them are pretty tasty, so go with what you like. The overall texture is creamy and smooth, some sweetness from real sugar (nothing fake here), and a pronounced flavor without it being overwhelming or unnatural.
The ingredients in the blueberry-vanilla flavor are: purified water, whey protein isolate, organic cane sugar, organic evaporated cane juice, juice concentrate, extra light olive oil, citric acid, pectin, natural flavor, black carrot juice concentrate (color), lactic acid, grape juice concentrate (color). There is no aspartame or any other artificial sweetener. This is really good stuff!
Until February 28 (2010), there is an excellent deal on Amazon. Normally, a 12-pk is $25.00 (yes, a little pricey), but if you subscribe to this product, you automatically save 15%. Use code MIXISTAC when you checkout to save another 25%, for a total savings of 40%. That makes this 12-pk only $15.00! It is also available through Amazon Prime’s Free 2-day shipping program (which I also have!). If you’re ready to try something new and good for you, this is a great deal! Order today!
Visit the mix1 company website here.
Posted by iwanttodothat on February 12, 2010
I think I’ve resolved a lot of issues since my last post 11 days ago. I don’t apologize for my ranting one single bit. In fact, it has tremendously helped me make some difficult decisions about my personal life.
I do not have to have anyone give me their stamp of approval to do what I want to do. I don’t need it to continue or to succeed! I will do it because I want to!
This blog is called “i want to do that” NOT ” my friends and i want to do that”!
This is an area of my life that can be all about me. I want to fence. I want to run. I want to look good. Really good, not “good for my weight,” or “you’ve got such a pretty face” good. I want to complete a triathlon. I want to run a marathon. I want to travel and not worry about airplane seats, tiny bathrooms, chairs with arms, etc.
My mind is finally changing. I have control over what I eat. I make decisions about my physical activity. I choose to fence. I choose to eat healthy foods in the right amounts. Other people do not control me. I can control myself.
I cannot control other people and their decisions. They will do what they want to do. I will do what I want to do.
I am going to do this. I am going to make my goal weight. I have let what other people think control me for too long! I’m done with that!
I had a great fencing lesson tonight. The teacher was very encouraging and said that something had changed. I was using my core more, and he said it was like I had really decided to fence. I know this is true. My head is in the game, now. I’m doing it. Go me!
Posted by iwanttodothat on February 1, 2010
RANT ahead. Consider yourself warned.
Okay, friends. It’s Day 155, 5 days into my 100-day challenge to shed 50 more pounds. I’ve barely got a toe over the start line for this one.
I’m finding it difficult to get the job done. One of my road blocks is that I have a lot on my mind. My house has sinkhole activity under it, so I’m dealing with that mess and everything it implies (cleaning house, constructions workers, contractors, insurance company, etc.). I’ve been sick and/or allergic for the last week or so, and am just not back to 100%.
One of the other things I’m trying to get over is the lack of friends that want to do something, too. I feel like I’m swimming upstream. The people I thought were my closest friends don’t want to hear about fitness or diet or doing a 5k or anything like that. It’s a real disappointment to me.
I know I’ve disappointed PLENTY of people in the past, present, and will continue to disappoint. Not sure why I continue to have such high expectations from others. Really.
Yes, I admire people for working hard. I’m working hard, too. In order to be your best to give your life away, you have to do something for yourself. If you are not healthy, how can you set a healthy example for your kids? Will you be there for your kids? I mean that in the most literal way possible, too. Are you going to put yourself in an early grave because you’ve neglected yourself? When you think “The kids need me” this means they need you to be alive and operational. This does not mean that they need you to plan another activity for the greater good. Yes, I could spend all day every day working on volunteering, teaching kids, cleaning the house, planning activities, etc., but what good is this going to be if I’m dead in 10 years, and my teenaged children are having to work through that mess when they are at the age they will need me the most?
My kids can read, imagine, play, interact with people from all ages, and they can learn anything. I also know them VERY well. I know them better than anyone else on the planet. I am preparing them to be independent learners, thinkers, and doers. I’m excited for them to grow up and have their own families. I want to see that! I want to see my grandchildren and still be healthy enough to take them on a trip with me when I’m 60.
I’m on a huge soapbox, I know, but this is serious business. I have to get my shit together and get the weight off. My kids deserve the best, and that includes MY best, too.
With all that said, I’m left wondering if I should keep trying to motivate friends to come join me or do a little bit of relationship pruning and make some new friends?
I understand that you have to work on relationships. I also know that you have to set some healthy boundaries.
This all comes down to the fact that I’m feeling a little lonely on this journey. If I continue to work hard, and shed another 50, 100, or 125 pounds, will I have any friends left? Will I have all new friends? What will happen?
I almost want to lose all of this weight and move to another city. People would only know the thin version of me, and not expect me to put all that weight back on. Agh. I’m obviously having some sort of identity crisis or something.
I just need to get my ass back outside running around and working out. Got another 5k this Saturday to slog through BY MYSELF. No surprise there. I’m used to it. I’ll feel better after I sweat for a couple of hours at the gym. Maybe I’ll be so tired I can’t think about any of this crap.