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Day 142

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 19, 2010

This morning, I had a brutal personal training session. I didn’t do my cardio over the last week, so I’m really dragging. We walked/ran a mile with interval training mixed in (jumping jacks, criss-crosses, lunges, shuffles, you get the idea.) After that, we took it inside for some serious upper body work. My hands got a real workout, too, holding on to 25-lb dumbbells! You just really don’t want to drop those!

So, here’s the rundown:


7:15 Got up, took meds, drank water, stretched, got ready for training.

8:00 Personal training. Read top of blogpost.

9:00 Breakfast. 1 protein shake from Maggie, 1/2 banana.


12:45 Lunch. Took kids to Sweet Tomatoes. Ate way too much. It was all pretty healthy stuff, but too many carbs.

4:00 Snack. 1 scoop EAS protein powder.

5:15 Exercise. Cardio at the Y.

7:30 Dinner. Tilapia and steamed broccoli.

8:00 Watch The Biggest Loser!

11:00 Bedtime. This is the goal bedtime.


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Day 140

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 17, 2010

Nothing too exciting to post today except that I took Girl Scouts to horse camp all day yesterday. I saw all the other moms getting ready to ride horses, too, and I figured I might as well ask and see if there was a weight limit or if they had a horse that could accommodate me. Why not, right? Well, it turns out they do have a weight limit of 250 lbs for a rider, but they had a big horse named “Cirrus” who looked just like you might expect with a name like that, who could handle me! I tried on some boots, and managed to fit into a pair of actual cowboy boots! Not special order boots for extra wide calves or anything like that, but actual cowboy boots! They put a helmet on me and I didn’t have any time at all to back out. I was paired up with my horse before I could change my mind. Getting on the horse was difficult and it took me two tries, but I did it! What a feeling! I really cannot even describe how powerful I felt after overcoming a huge fear of actually getting on the horse, then sitting up there on top of him! Wow! I rode around the arena for a while, but we (the director of this experience and I) agreed that I wouldn’t go on the hour-long trail ride. I was totally okay with that, especially since I got in about an hour of horse time. I was a happy camper. After my ride, I successfully dismounted without hurting myself, the horse, or anyone else.

This kind of a day is what my journey is all about. I want to do that! I wanted to ride a horse and I did it! I’m tired of weight and size barriers, not to mention physical discomfort and limitations being in my way. From a laziness perspective, it’s a lot easier to change myself than to try to change the hundreds of situations that are limited to average-sized people. This is NOT the same as skin color or ethnicity, for instance, or even disability. This is about deciding what you put in your mouth and how much you move your body. Even physically limited people can lose weight. It’s not really rocket science. It’s definitely harder for some than others, but it doesn’t mean it’s not possible.

Here’s another external motivator regarding the horseback riding: This was a Girl Scout event. ALL sixteen Junior Girl Scouts in my daughter’s troop were on this adventure, and it impressed the hell out of them that I rode a horse. Some of the girls even cheered for me! One girl, who is probably the most critical of them all, even commented on my appearance saying, “Miss Ann, you look a lot better!” This was a huge compliment from this girl and I could see the other girls looking at me with a critical eye and nodding their heads. I’m not sure I could’ve smiled much more than I was smiling after that. They were all watching when I made my first attempt at getting on the horse, and couldn’t, then tried again. They saw how excited I was to be on the horse! They were excited, too! I just had to set an example of strength and determination, and they saw it. I think this was huge. It was huge for me. I didn’t want them to see that I was the only mom who went and didn’t ride. Why would someone spend all the time and effort to go all day to horse camp and not ride a horse? I didn’t plan on riding. I brought a backpack full of reading material and my iPod. I was certain that there was no way I was getting on a horse, in fact, I hadn’t even entertained the idea until late that morning. My initial thoughts were: 1- they won’t have boots to fit me, 2- I’ll exceed the weight limit, or they won’t have a horse that fits me, and 3- me on a horse? Am I insane? If I were to fall off, or be thrown off, it would certainly be a bad situation. All of those scenarios are excuses not to do it because of my weight and fitness level.

I think I’m starting to get somewhere with the mental aspect of this journey. Being fat is no fun. It is certainly not more fun that doing all the things you can’t do because you’re too fat! The bottom line is this: Lose weight, have more fun! Bottom line.

What did I eat today?

Breakfast. 1 Atkins chocolate shake.

Snack. Sesame Snaps. (Sesame candy from Poland. Shoot me.)

Lunch. 1/2 Publix Ultimate sub on multi-grain bread, 1/2c baked potato salad.

Took a LONG nap. I’m chalking it up to PMS.

Dinner. 1 chicken thigh (fried, took skin and coating off), 1 potato (cut into wedges and baked with a little olive oil), 1c broccoli.

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Day 139

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 16, 2010


5:30 Woke up, took meds, stretched, got ready for an all-day Girl Scout horseback riding trip. No, I’m not riding today, but maybe next year.

6:30 Breakfast. 2 scoops EAS protein, 1 banana.

9:00 Snack. 1/2c fat-free cottage cheese, 1/2c frozen blueberries.


12:00 Lunch. 1 roast beef sandwich on 2 slices whole wheat bread and mustard, 1 Yoplait, 1 packet raisins.

2:30 Snack. 1 apple, 2o almonds.

6:00 Dinner. I don’t know what I’m going to eat here, but will try to behave.

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Day 138

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 15, 2010

It’s day 138! Wow. Hard to believe that I’ve been working at this for that long, really. Most previous weight-loss efforts have stopped much sooner than 4+months. You’ve probably had that same experience of getting all fired up and doing great on your “diet” then BAM! You hit a wall and abandon your efforts putting on more weight back on than you lost in the first place. I think we’ve all done that.

This time, I’m really doing it! Making steady progress and realizing that just because I ate a cupcake at a party doesn’t mean my diet is over. The key is getting back on that horse and continuing your plan. That all being said, let’s get to the good stuff:

My plan for today:


9:00 Wake up, take meds, stretch, get dressed.

10:00 Breakfast. 1/4c (uncooked) steel-cut oats, 3 egg whites.


12:30 Lunch. Chicken breast sandwich on whole wheat bread with mustard. Spinach salad.

3:30 Snack. 1/2c fat-free cottage cheese, 1/2c frozen blueberries.

6:00 Dinner. Not sure about this, but will try to behave myself.

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Day 137

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 14, 2010

Today starts with personal training and ends with fencing. Other than that, I’ve got a whole lot to get done around the house today. Lots of lists.

Here’s my food plan for the day:


7:15 Wake up, take meds, stretch, get ready for training.

8:00 Personal training with Maggie.

9:00 Breakfast. Protein shake from Maggie, 1 banana.

11:00 Snack. 1 apple, 10 almonds.


1:00 Lunch. 1/2c brown rice, 6oz tilapia, 2c broccoli, salad.

3:00 Snack. 1/2c fat-free cottage cheese, 1/2c frozen blueberries.

5:30 Dinner. 4oz chicken breast, 3c salad, grape tomatoes, onions, peppers.

9:00 Snack. Post-workout protein shake.


This morning at personal training, I broke the news to Maggie that my budget needs to take a month off from personal training. I’m sad, she’s sad. Here’s the thing, I need to see if I can manage to make progress without having her 2-3x/week. I’ll be honest here, I’m going to need some help from my support system that I’ve been cultivating for the last few months. The reality is that I feel like I’ve been at the Biggest Loser Ranch for 3 months and now I have to go home and get the job done on my own. I know I can do it, but I’ve also promised myself if I’m failing to make progress, I will call Maggie and get back on track. So, what I need from my dear readers, fans, friends, and family, is to be supportive and come out and join me for a 5k some time! You can do it!

I have a book recommendation for today to inspire you to be your best no matter where you are on this journey. It’s called Slow Fat Triathlete: Live Your Athletic Dreams in the Body You Have Now by Jayne Williams. Check it out!

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Day 136

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 13, 2010


9:30 Woke up, took meds, drank water, stretched.

10:45 Breakfast. 1 banana, 1c roasted red pepper and tomato soup (Pacific foods soups are incredibly delicious and worth the price!)


1:00 Lunch. Chick-fil-A Southwest Chargrilled Salad, no dressing. Coke Zero. (TIP: Do not use any regular dressing. Read the labels! At Chick-fil-A, the clear winners in the condiment category are the Buffalo Sauce and Light Italian dressing. You can practically dump these on your food with no ill caloric effects. The Buffalo Sauce tastes good on salad!)

3:00 Snack. 1/2c fat-free cottage cheese, 1/2c frozen blueberries.

5:30 Dinner. Rotisserie chicken breast (no skin), 2c steamed broccoli. For my family, I’m adding roast red potatoes to this meal.

9:00 Snack. Some sort of recovery protein beverage for post-workout.

I am also packing an apple in my purse, just in case I have to eat something while I’m out. An apple isn’t going to do any damage.

I’m planning to get in my cardio tonight on my way home from rehearsal. It’s not ideal, but it won’t be taking away from family time. I also need to start figuring out how to run on the treadmill. This is something I’m not particularly excited about.

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Day 135 – Weigh-In

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 12, 2010

Today was a weigh-in, as will be every Tuesday now. I weighed in at 294.2lbs! Yes! I’m on track for my monthly 10lb goal. So, I’m at a total of 55.8lbs lost! I had a great workout today. We’re working on my coordination, flexibility, and agility. I need all of that for fencing, especially.

Looking ahead to my race schedule, I’ve got three 5ks coming up in February and March where I want to see some real progress in my time. Along with training for those, I start training for two mini-triathlons coming up in April and May.

For this start of the year, my primary fitness goal is get more of this darn weight off. Yes, I will be progressing in muscle-building, endurance, etc., but I’m focusing on my diet to get the pounds off quickly. I am really tired of having a gut, so it’s got to go!

Some other news and points of interest:

  • My wedding ring is in my jewelry box for the time being. It’s too big. Every time I go to wash my hands, I’m in danger of it going down the drain. I almost lost it three times in one day, so that was it. It was also just flying off at random times.
  • People I haven’t seen in a long time are shocked when they see me. People I have recently met are shocked when they see YouTube videos of me from a few years ago. When I get down to 200, nobody will recognize me! It will be even worse when I get to 175 (goal weight!)

The Biggest Loser is on tonight! Tune in at 8/7central on NBC to see who’s going home tonight!

Okay, so here’s the food plan for today.


7:30 Woke up, took meds, drank water.

8:00 Training with Maggie and weigh-in.

9:00 Breakfast. Protein shake from Maggie.

11:00 Snack. 6oz fat-free Yoplait yogurt, 1 apple.

1:00 Lunch. McDonald’s Grilled Chicken Caesar salad with Newman’s Own Balsamic Vinaigrette. Our family has sworn off McDonald’s for 2010, but today our LEGO robotics team is meeting there for lunch and awards before heading to play mini-golf. This is clearly an exception.

4:00 Snack. 1/2c fat-free cottage cheese, 1/2c frozen blueberries.

6:30 Dinner. 5oz salmon, 2c broccoli.

9:00 Snack. 1 scoop EAS protein powder.

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Day 134

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 11, 2010

Okay, so readers like the food journal and the pictures. I will be back on track with that tomorrow, I swear!

Today, I got a seriously late start. I started cleaning out my closet, and so far, I have 2 bags of clothes that are going to Goodwill. I’m not even close to being done, either. After the clothes, I’m going through the yarn. There is a lot of it! Maybe I will finally knit myself a sweater next winter because it will be a much smaller project!!! LOL!

I didn’t calibrate my Nike+ today, but I did map out a 3-mile course on Google Maps that will be a nice change from my current route.

Today’s food so far:

2 fat-free Yoplait yogurts
1 clementine
1 Special K bar
2 slices whole wheat bread with mustard and 4oz chicken breast

The rest of the day’s plans:

Snack: 2 scoops EAS protein powder

Dinner: 2 scoops EAS protein powder (I know. Don’t feel like eating after fencing tonight. Better than nothing.)


Tonight, I have fencing, and I’m having a hard time getting pumped about going. I am still a beginner, and it’s just soooo difficult at my weight (at ANY weight, really, but especially at nearly 300 lbs). I missed last week due to a rehearsal one night, and being at Disney on the other night. So, I’m starting off the new year by missing a week of fencing. This is a recurring psychological theme in my life that I have to get over. Just because I miss 1-2 times, it is not the end of the world! In the music world (I’m a trained professional musician), you are trained to NOT miss anything. I’ve been in so many musical situations where if you are late, you’re fired, if you miss, you’re fired. Any infraction, and you’re fired or kicked out. I need to remember that fencing is for fun! A hobby! I go when I go, and enjoy it. It’s not a gig!

With all that in mind, I think I can do it!

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Day 133

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 10, 2010

It’s really flippin’ cold in Tampa today. I went to the YMCA for a Salsa dance class (please stop laughing now.) There was a substitute teacher, so I don’t think it was exactly what it usually is. There was a mix of salsa, zumba, belly dancing, and stretching. I definitely got in my cardio for the day. Just to make sure, I hopped on the elliptical after class for 10 minutes to work my legs.

I’m on track with my calories today, but not the greatest eating plan.  I’m drinking tons of water, too. Tuesday is a weigh-in, and in order to make my 10 pound/month goal, I need to see some progress.

Tomorrow, I’m planning to finally calibrate my Nike+ system after I outline some distances on Google Maps tonight. I need a change up in my route, because, frankly, I’m sick of doing the same old lap. I also need to make some serious plans regarding swimming and biking, now that I’m signed up for 2 mini-triathlons this Spring. What was I thinking? How am I going to work this in to my current training plan?

I also need to figure out a better way to blog my food diary. First, does anyone care about all of that? I know that when I do detailed recording of my food, I lose weight, so there’s my answer, I guess.

So far today, and I’m being brutally honest here, I’ve eaten:

1 KIND sesame & peanut bar
1 KIND almond & apricot yogurt bar
1 banana
1 slice sourdough 5-grain bread
3 pieces of cheese ravioli
1 Mix1 key lime protein shake

I’m planning to eat:

1 baked potato
1c homemade chili (no beans)
6oz fatfree Yoplait yogurt

Not great, not terrible.

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Day 132

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 9, 2010

It’s freezing cold in Tampa. Some areas got sleet and a few flakes of actual snow! Miraculous, really. Basically, I’m going to have to get my butt to the YMCA today because my now-Florida blood is way too wimpy for this cold. I’m also missing 50 pounds worth of insulation, so I’m just plain feeling colder than everyone else in my house. It’s taking a little while to get used to a new and improved body. I imagine it will take me years to fully accept myself when I reach my goal weight. The last time I wasn’t clinically obese was toddlerhood. Still trying to wrap my head around the fact that I will make it to 180 in 2010.

I’ve been having weigh-ins every 2 weeks, but starting on Tuesday, they will be weekly. I’m a little nervous about this, but I want to really buckle down and get this done. It’s only ONE YEAR. That’s it! I can do anything for a year. I’ve worked at crappy jobs, lived in crappy apartments, endured crappy situations, and the biggest difference between this endurance contest  and the others is that getting my weight and fitness in order will be beneficial to me in every area of my life instead of self-destructive or martyrdom. I’m doing this for myself! My husband and family are definitely benefitting, but ultimately it’s for myself. My confidence level has gone way up and I’m not interested in anyone getting in my way there. I can do it!


10:00 Woke up, took meds, drank a Coke Zero (I know!).

11:00 Breakfast. 1/4c steel cut oats, 3 egg whites, 1 small banana.

12:00 Exercise. YMCA.

2:00 Lunch.

4:30 Snack.

7:00 Dinner.

9:00 Snack.

10:00 Bed.

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