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a journey from thick to thin

Happy 2012!!!

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 1, 2012

It’s a new year and a new start! Like 2011, I’m ringing in the new year with a month-long triathlon challenge! Our new team name is The Incredible Machine and so far we have 14 members. The goal is to complete as many Long Distance triathlons as we can this month, as a team! Last year, our team of 23 completed nearly 10!!!

The official distance (Iron Man distance) is 2.4 miles of swimming, 112 miles of biking, and 26.2 miles of running. This year, each member has a goal of completing one of these themselves, or you can barter your miles with teammates. For instance, I’m more of a swimmer than a biker, so I might swim the miles for a couple of other people who don’t swim at all in exchange for them biking a good chunk of my bike miles.

This year is going to be great! I’m back!!!

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Remember January?

Posted by iwanttodothat on September 23, 2011

Hey, friends! Long time, no see.

I have fallen and am having a terrible time getting back up. I’ve gained almost all of my weight back. Disappointing, I know. I’m incredibly pissed off at myself and am feeling like I can’t get my mojo back.

A few updates…

The challenge my friends and I did in January turned out to be an awesome experience! I personally swam over 12 miles that month! What have I done since then? Absolutely nothing.

Cut to the present… I’m back up to 3xx lbs (don’t make me say it) and one of my fitness buddies asked me to swim on her triathlon relay team. She will bike 10 miles, and another friend will run 3 miles. I will be swimming .33 miles in the open water at Ft. DeSoto. This is one month from now. What was I thinking? I should be swimming 4x/week, hardcore, to meet this challenge. So, I will be posting my swimming log here for a little bit of accountability. It would be great if I shed 20 pounds this month, too, but I’m just going to go for the swimming bit right now. My goal here is to finish the swim, alive.

That’s all there is to report at this time. I’m trying to get back in there. I just feel so damaged by some negativity that occurred during the last go around, that the little voice inside my head that whispers “you can’t do that” gained some ground. It’s incredibly frustrating. I can do any damn thing I want to do. I don’t know why it always has to be about competition with me, but it does. I was raised to be competitive. I was also raised hearing a little voice that said “you can do better” or “you’re not good enough.” I’ve been torn with this conflict as long as I can remember. Why don’t I feel like I deserve the absolute best? What is it that makes me not finish things? Why can I start like a rockstar and turn into an also-ran?

Dear God, help me accept the people I cannot change. Help me finish what I start. Forgive me for being a huge pain in the ass, a liar, a manipulator, and a procrastinator. Thank you for your mercy and grace, even when I am too self-involved to see it and accept it. I will try harder in the future to understand this. I will stop apologizing for myself and take responsibility for everything I say and do. I can get through anything with You beside me. Help me finish strong. Amen.

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Happy New Year!

Posted by iwanttodothat on January 4, 2011

Happy New Year, Dear Readers! I mentioned in my last post that there was big news coming, and there truly is!

21 of my friends and I are competing in the Iron Distance Challenge this month! This is a month-long distance challenge where individuals and teams compete by completing as many Iron Mans as they can (2.4 miles swimming, 112 miles biking, 26.2 miles running.) This particular challenge is being held by the TriGals out of Westchase. They seem like a wonderful group of women striving for friendship and fitness!

I hosted a little gathering at my house on December 29th and invited a bunch of friends who have been very supportive throughout my fitness journey. Since I fell off the wagon last year, I had to analyze why that happened so I wouldn’t repeat that mistake. Last year, I got started on my journey alone.  Yes, I had the support of my husband, but we weren’t doing it together; it was my new thing. I took that experience with having a personal trainer 3x/week and learned everything I could from her. I have to say that the most important thing I learned was that I CAN do it! I ran, I boxed, I jumped, I skipped, I lunged, I lifted, and I lost a lot of weight. It is not impossible for me to move it and lose it! I also discovered that I enjoyed it. I love to feel the muscles developing in my body and the greater ease of movement all over. I enjoyed the aspect of running that I was actually moving my body faster than ever. I was doing that. I also started fencing. That’s something that I never thought I could really do.

So, the morning of my gathering, I got out all of my race bibs, medals, and pictures, and made a collage. This was an extremely emotional activity for me and I realized I probably should’ve done it six months ago. It was very motivating and hopefully it was motivating for my friends.

As you can see, I was busy last year! I had a great time and am looking forward to my next race!

I just want to give a huge shout out to my teammates! Thank you to Jon, Karla, Bryan, Laura, Clyde, Patrice, Hugues, Robin, Crystal, Dale, Terri, Fontaine, JoAnn, Shari, Shirley, Michele, Sharon, Traci, David, Melissa, and Carrie! Y’all are truly wonderful friends! Let’s do this!

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December Update

Posted by iwanttodothat on December 30, 2010

Hey, friends! Long time, no see, right? Lots of things have been going on this Fall, and I’m really ready for Winter and Spring.

I want to give a big ol’ shout out to GearJunkie! I won a pair of Vibram Treksport Five Fingers! Remember that I lost one of my VFFs in the Gulf of Mexico over the summer? Well, Santa must’ve heard my plea for a new pair! They are gorgeous!

Now, for the juicy tidbits…

Confessional time… I did great on the Paleo Diet for a couple of months recently, and I fell off the wagon completely starting with a piece of birthday cake. Why is this significant? In Mark Sisson’s The Primal Blueprint, he talks about his own birthday party and not eating a piece of his own cake. A guest asks him how he keeps so fit and looking good; he responds with, “I don’t eat cake.” Or something to that effect. Pardon my paraphrasing, Mark! That dialogue has plagued me since I read it. It’s one of those moments that makes perfect sense. When my head is in the game, paleo-wise, it’s very easy for me to stick to it, but when I’m not present in the moment, it’s easy to fall back into the culture surrounding me and have a piece of cake like everyone else at the party. Peer pressure? I don’t think so, totally. I think it’s so ingrained culturally, that it is difficult work to retrain those reactions and the decision-making process for food.

How did I spend my summer? Well, Mostly I spent time with my mom. She had back surgery and now has some titanium hardware in her lower back. She was doing well, then about 2 weeks post-op, she had a serious reaction to the sutures and she went for another surgery. They opened her back up, cleaned it all out and put in a wound-vac – no sutures. What a mess. She’s doing great now, and getting around very well with a cane. Hooray!

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and is making plans for a great 2011! I know I am. Big news coming!

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The Paleo Diet and Christianity

Posted by iwanttodothat on December 22, 2010

Can Christians Be Paleo? Christianity, Faith, Evidence, Dobzhansky, Evolution, and More

This is a great article on The Daily Lipid blog. I’ve been struggling with some of these issues over the course of trying the Paleo Diet.

No matter your perspective, this is an interesting read. Enjoy!

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How to Keep Feces Out of Your Bloodstream (or Lose 10 Pounds in 14 Days)

Posted by iwanttodothat on September 19, 2010

How to Keep Feces Out of Your Bloodstream (or Lose 10 Pounds in 14 Days).

Awful headline, but awesome blogpost from Tim Ferriss! Check it out!

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Day 26 of the Paleo Diet

Posted by iwanttodothat on September 16, 2010

Well, I’m still working this program! I’m down about 15 pounds and I feel really good. I’m not physically craving anything, either. If I were to make a poor decision and eat a cupcake or something, I’d probably go ahead and eat 3 cupcakes and take a long carb crash nap and feel hungover. Choosing food is incredibly simple on this diet. There is no measuring and I like that. If I didn’t plan well for lunch or whatever, skipping a meal hasn’t meant disaster because I’m just not hungry. My sugar levels feel like they are stable, although I don’t measure them because I’m not diabetic. I haven’t had any kind of crash-napping at all.

My life is really all about good clean animal proteins, fruits, and vegetables. I can see this being a very sustainable way of life.

I am getting over a cold that I got from my kids. It was inevitable. The whole house has been sick with back-to-school colds. Add ragweed/chenopods blooming right now, and it’s a mess for some of us.

I loaded up my new Kindle with The Paleo Diet and The Primal Blueprint so I can study a little bit wherever I happen to be. I’m sure there are other resources out there, but that’s what I’m starting with.

I’m planning to start working out again next week. I should be completely well by then and ready to bust it at the gym. I need to start working out again so I can get back to fencing and have some real fun!

Keep plugging away at your goals! I am!

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Killer At Large – Watch the Documentary Film for Free

Posted by iwanttodothat on September 6, 2010

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Check out this documentary. The obesity epidemic is real, folks!

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Day 14 Done!

Posted by iwanttodothat on September 4, 2010

I’m feeling back on track now. With 2 weeks of the Paleo Diet done, I’m starting to feel like I did a year ago when I started changing my diet. My sodium intake has gone way down and I can tell by my hands and feet, in particular. Any kind of puffiness is gone. My rings are off again, and my extremities are cold all the time.

I can feel a change in my upper abdomen. Maybe less puffiness? I’m not sure if it’s because of no grains, no dairy, or a combination of the two. Possibly weight loss, too. You just accept things for so long and think they are normal. I’m not sure if this is a real change or wishful thinking.

The most awesome thing so far was that during my monthly cycle, I experienced NO symptoms (other than the obvious one!) Seriously, none. Not one cramp, twinge, headache, nap… nothing. That in itself was a really huge benefit.

I’m having to remind myself that eating a big ol’ hunk of bread is just not worth it. I’m 14 days into a very strict 30 days, and I really want to make it without breaking down. I’m hoping to see enough changes that I don’t have to convince myself to keep eating like this. I shouldn’t need any convincing at all.

Today, I read a couple of good articles that really spoke to me:

  • The Whole30 – Great site to pump you up to try a squeaky clean eating plan for 30 days. You can do it!
  • Smoking Candy Cigarettes – Extremely well-written article/rant. Just plain awesome.

And finally, I came across the sad story of Garrett, a 28-year old weight-loss blogger, who lost his life way too early. His blog Stages of Change chronicles his recent years of struggle, despair, recovery, hope, and an unwillingness to give up on believing he would figure his mess out.

I’m trying to get my act together. I need to have serious boundaries like a strict Paleo eating style. I will take a mile if given an inch. I require supervision. I succeed when I have deadlines and rules. When I think in my head, “I can’t eat dairy,” that’s the end of the story. I can’t eat dairy. When I start thinking, “Well, I never had a problem with dairy before I went on this diet, so I could probably eat the ice cream and nothing will happen,” I will most certainly find myself at the bottom of a pint of Ben & Jerry’s trying to lick the bottom, and wondering what flavor I can eat next. I have no idea what my real physiological symptoms of dairy consumption have been, because I just turned off anything that resembled discomfort from eating. When eating is a major source of pleasure, you will endure whatever the consequences are. I am living proof of that, since I’ve ignored weight gain as a consequence of pleasure eating.

Finding healthy alternatives is difficult. I’m still working on that and probably will be for some time to come. Learning to fence was a highlight of this past year, and I took the summer off. Now, I’m out of shape and really want to lose another 30 pounds before I show up to start fencing again.

While I’ve made great strides in my diet these past weeks, I’m still on the starting block with my fitness program. I’m dealing with some personal stress and failure that I need to let go. I’ll be blogging about that this coming week.

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Day 1, Year 2

Posted by iwanttodothat on August 31, 2010

Well, today is the first day of a new year in my journey to good health. I’m also on Day 10 of the Paleo Diet and I’m still in compliance there!

I’ve learned a lot over the last year and I’m going to share some of those things with you this week as I look back over the year.

I am not stuck in a rut or abandoning you, but it’s back to school time in our house and we have crazy schedules this week and next, so bear with me!

More to come this week!

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